Spaced by jackyl@texoma.net notes: i don't know where this idea came from, it just did. one thing, tho: think stock footage...like an ed wood movie... film: well, like i said, stock footage. all black and white. kinda grainy, but not too bad... "" shot of d'arcy, lying in a field, waking up, looking very dazed (and confused) and slightly pissed off "dad dad dad" a little boy, 8-ish, standing in a field looking at the ground, crying. "dead dead dead dead dead" same kid, same pose, same field....but now, it's a shot from far off, and we can see he's staring at a grave. "was i ever alive?" a skeleton, lying against a building in an alley, a few tattered rags clinging to the bones. it's holding an empty tequila bottle "fucking makes you alive in one minute" background: very very very blury, people getting, well, fucked. in slow motion foreground: lower right corner, a clock, and the second hand goes around in the exact time it takes to say this line. faster than normal, obviously. and then it ends abruptly as we cut to..... "solstice" the sun, only it's a cartoon sun. looks very happy and nice. "i am solstice filled with mercury" billy (#2), in the 666 shirt, looking up, like he's in intense pain. glowing, and mercury is dribbling from his mouth like it was blood. "filled with mercury" he explodes in a shower of mercury "liquid fucked" a bottle of tequila, still full and sealed and brand new. looks like an ad. "see right thru your heart see right thru your heart" a very renisance-esque sacred heart, which gets more and more transparent, and then dissolves from the bottom up.... "fuck your heart" okay, there's two billys. one looking very mean, on the left, pointing a gun at billy 2, looking very timid and afraid and scared. billy 1 (wearing that kewl polyester shirt from sf on vieuphoria) shoots billy 2 in the heart. "i am mercury liquid pure" billy 2 again, like he was in the "filled with mercury" lines, only now he has one fist thrust defiantly into the airscreaming these lines. "hot alive dead mucked fish eyes" the pisces fish from the album liner notes. only they're bubbling and cooking, and burn up, all but their eyes...all happens really fast. "doors" a room, looks a lot like a carnival horror house, and billy 2 is in the middle, in the 666 shirt, spinning around, very scared; and confused--which room? "i was born alive" a clam shell with d'arcy--looks like that painting of venus nude in the clam shell. you know what i'm talking about, right? yeah, i hoped so. and yes d'arcy's nude, but she's got really long hair like in the painting. "i'll fucking kill you" billy 1 chasing billy 2 with a gun thru the same alley as the skeleton was in. in fact, they run past it. "i'll beat your soft baby head with my own hand" james, holding a baby billy, looks drunk, and sayas this. "careful with that baby, don't ever say the h word around him" camera pulls back, and we see d'arcy looking at james telling him this. james looks even more drunk, and terribly confused... "ashamed" billy 1, in a bar, looking very ashamed (although i'm not sure how that looks). he picks up that bottle of tequila and takes a swig like he's a full-fledged alcoholic "i am ashamed of my name, say it" billy 2 takes the stool next to him, takes the bottle, and does the same as billy 1 "i hate the sound of your shit because it means no good" a salesman who looks very very corny/salesman stereotypical. at shit, he holds up some. yummy. "it means cheap, liar, smart ass piece of shit" same thing, only it shrinks to the bottom left corner, and a cartoony bubble appears, coming from the salesman's mouth...it says "fantastic!" or "great source of fiber!" and just about whatever corny/stereotypical salesman phrase you want. it would be really kewl if it changed every time you saw the vid.. :) "change it to raygun you fuck" billy 1 and billy 2, in the alley, billy 1 about to shoot billy 2 (sound familiar?), but billy 1 has a .45, and billy 2 (timid billy, 'member..) says this to billy 1 (evil billy) "billy the loon billy the loon" 'member my "i'm going crazy" vid? anyway, it's billy in a padded cell, sitting cross-legged on his bed, swaying back and forth, singing it... "i am mars i am mars" billy, now dressed like a roman god, painted red (altho it's black and white, you can sorta tell), standing on his bed triumphantly. he's got a sword and shield too "billy addly addly addly..." billy 1 and billy 2 sitting on the floor the cell, looking up at billy 3 (whoa. there's 3....even i didn't see that coming). billy 2 hands the tequila bottle to billy 1 "your name causes shit" the salesman, still with the balloon, but now it says "billy" and the letters turn one by one to shit and fall off the screen "while i may be no expert on this reality" jimmy as a priest in this very spanish looking church, talking to d'arcy and james, who look like catholic school children. uniforms and everything. "there is no god but shame" in the foreground is a crucifix, and the background is really too blurry to make out. the Jesus on the cross lifts his arms up in front of his face, hiding behind them "god is hurt, god is cold" billy 2 huddled in that same alley, in about 6 inches of snow and ice, holding that bottle of tequila. snows still falling, winds blowing hard "try that once, god is dead" same scene, but now god (looks a lot like jerry garcia) sits down next to billy. he's god, so he's glowing. he takes the tequila from billy 2 and has a swig "there is not another one" there's a desert, flat, a cactus or two...wind is blowing the sand. billys 1 and 2 are staggering blindly thru the sandstorm, while priest jimmy and catholic school children james and d'arcy are standing on the left of the screen, out of the sandstorm. it happens to be jimmy who says this line "battle" a bunch of troops coming out of an ocean onto a shore....d-day, duh. "cold heart radio" the same sacred heart as before, but now the flame on top is gone, and there's a car stereo right in the middle. "feedback" a clip of billy onstage making his guitar wail "the pain" billy 3, in his cell, still standing on the bed, screaming in agony "reoccuring messages of badness" okay, the cartoon sun from before, only now very very evil and sinister. the single picture is replaced by 2 smaller ones, and those by 4 smaller ones, and those by 16 and so on and so on until there's a billion or so little pictures of an evil so small you don't know what yer looking at "reoccuring living bad dreams at the vortex of lost souls" i've had this picture in my head forver....okay, a bus stop int he middle of a barren asphalt field. tiny little building, about 50 feet away, and a bench in front. there's several people gathered at the bus stop. some sitting some standing, a pregnant woman, whatever, its just a diverse group of about 8 people. the neon "bus" sign is blinking, and the skeleton from the alley walks up with his tequila bottle and plops doown on the bench. it may sound like a lot, but it only takes 8 or 10 seconds. "wailing lost souls of shame" weird skip in the film, and now everyone at the bus stop is on their feet, arms above their heads, wailing. the skeleton (still with his tequila) collapses "we are in one hole" billy 1, billy 2, god (looks like jerry garcia) and the skeleton are in a hole. the camera is at the top of the hole, looking down. they're calling to the person standing at the top of the hole, and we know there is one 'cause a shovelful of dirt comes down on them. (oh yeah..you can barely see, carved into the dirt on the side of the hole, the words "bury your heart in hole...") "like a cup of mercury phosphate brr...." a (tin, battered) cup of mecury phosphate, on a rickety wooden table, falls over in slow motion. if you've never seen mercury phosphate, it looks like liquid metal. and in slo-mo, it should look very cool.... "shuddering around" billy 2 back in the alley with the snow, only billys 2 and 3 are there too. a few broken tequila bottles lie on the ground.... "taste my shit you wench" sorta blurry. sorta slo-mo, too. we can see the back of d'arcy's head, and just beyond that we see james. he looks very very very pissed (and like he did in the psychologist bit in vieuphoria. d'arcy looks like in the disarm vid). he backhands d'arcy just as hard as he motherfucking can, and she spins halfway around as we see the blood fly from her mouth (still slo-mo) "lifting wailing lst souls who stand a chance" back to the wailing lost souls of shame, and now they fall one by one, except for a few...a "holy-looking light from the heavens" shines on those few, still arms in the air, but screaming with joy "hot, my eyes darkly gaze, and wonder--do not enter" billy 2, standing in a doorway, hand on the open door, looking out into the black night. his eyes sorta glow with eveil. the room behind him i sblurry, but all you can see is the opposite wall and hardwood floors.at do not enter, he slams the door shut and a sign on the door says "do not enter" "why why why" billy 2 in the alley, holding his head in his hands and sobbing "i was born whole" a very corny looking zues head (from the eyes up) explodes in a very 20's silent film way, and we see billy 3, still dressed like a roman god, standing triumphantly as the smoke clears "fractured divided shattered into a billion fragments" a mirror, and billy 3, looking into it in a confused/curious way. it begins to crack, until finally it shatters ("into a billion fragments...") "a million piece puzzle" billys 1 2 and 3 all trying to put the mirror back together, but with no luck "a million piece jigsaw puzzle" they all give up and sit down on the ground, and stare at each other "with no this" billy 3 disappears.... "and no that" billy 1 disappears, leaving only billy 1, who looks down at the ground depressedly, and then he too disappears. fade to black yeah, there's a lot of hidden messages and undertones and stuff, and i'll point 'em out if your interested. theres' even afew of 'em that i didn't expect. of course, i just had a few scenes in mind, the rest i just sat down and made up. feedback is welcome.